This maybe WILL be the last episode ;'(
Friday, January 14, 2011, ϟ 2 shout(s)
Yeah thats waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay to much hurt. Lately ni aku banyak sangat stress. Im stress out more than I can handle it by myself. *sigh. I try to forget and pust it all away. But i just cant. Lagi lagi ni tahun SPM aku. Aku taknak banyak fikir. Banyak sangat benda aku nak kejar. Itu, ini. There's a lot more. kadang kadang aku rasa oneday aku boleh jadi gila. Like seriously. Aku cepat penat, cepat marah even in a small matter. Im too streesful. Can someone help me? Anybody please? :/
Im too much care for this guy. Yeah, but he seems doesnt care much about me. Ahhhh, I dont mind. Hes not supposed to care. Its cool when evrything he share with you. Life, girl around him. School. Then suddenly we meet. Eyes tell evrythings. No word except eye contact. Just eye. Haha kelakar kan? Macam budak budak lah kau mushee. zzzz' mengantuk nya cerita pasal benda ni. But the thing is, this is one of my sucks problem. sigh
I should never have care. But I did care. I cared a lot. And still fucking care.
No one care. Semua cakap aku suka dengar problem orang. Then bila time aku sendiri ada problem, aku still accept semua story from another. But the fact is, I cant take it anymore. It hurts me a lot. I just cant believe, how people can be nicer than me. How people can understand me more like I do understand them. They cant. They just cant. Banyak masalah aku pendam sendiri. I cant let it out. Things at school, life journey. huh, theres a loooooooong way to go. Can you understand me?
11 november 2011. 11.11 p.m
Theres a great thing happened in his life, yeah Im so glad. Can you read my mind at that time? -,- No you cant. Because you never tried. I try to smile, but deep inside im crying. Hell no way im going to ruined everything. I have bobo and you? Its okay, we'll still can be friends. :) *smile. Okay stop talking this shitta thingy. Hey guys, Im just fine. And school is just okay. Lots of homeworks. Tapi aku cuba siapkan semua slow slow, I wanna be a better person, pray fo me okay. :)
I will pretend that I dont care for another 200 and plus plus day.
This year Im gonna give all out. Malas nak fikir sangat hal remeh. Badan pon selalu sangat tak sihat. I dont need your sympathy. Setahun je taknak layan perasaan. Perasaan sendiri, perasaan orang. I will be more sellfish now. Thanks. I love you and I hope that you will be happy in yourlife. Like I said, try to be a new person. Okay? Take time and never rushed out. I'l be at yourside whenever yaa need me. *big hugs -.-
If you love someone, tell them. Because hearts are often broken by words left unspoken :/